I can’t believe you’re gone and it kills me to know that you will never see this. I’m so glad I had the chance to meet you in middle school. You were truly the best friend anyone could ever ask for. I always looked forward to seeing you everyday because you honestly helped me so much. I remember how we would always walk home together every Wednesday after school and we would make ramen noodles at my house because there was never anything better to have. I remember how you showed me that tree down by the wash that had a swing on it like from the movie Bridge to Terabithia and you would always joke with me that I was going to be the girl who fell off of it. I remember us riding our bikes together through the neighborhood and going to the park near our house. I loved how you would always say you were “fluffy” instead of “chubby” every time one of us poked you in the stomach. You always knew how to cheer me up when I was down, even if I didn’t want to listen to it. You knew how to make everyone laugh and you always had that beautiful smile of yours on your face. I loved our little group of friends that we had, even if I didn’t show it as much like I should have. I really wish we all would have stayed in touch. I can’t believe how much we all grew apart, even Rebekah and I. I’m so glad you and Toon stayed good friends. I would give anything to have our little group meet up again and go do something boring that seems absolutely fun to us. I would give anything to hear your laugh again and to see your smile. I can’t believe I haven’t seen you since 8th grade and that kills me inside. Now I’m going to think about this everyday and wish that I could’ve just seen you once more. I’ve been laying here crying just trying to write this. I’m so so sorry Jesse. I wish I could have been a better friend. I can’t stand to think about how we weren’t close anymore.
You never think about this. You never think that someone you knew could just disappear forever one day. I couldn’t believe that you were gone. I just couldn’t. After hearing about this Thursday morning, I couldn’t go on with the rest of my day. I couldn’t study at all for that midterm I had yesterday. How could I? I felt like the whole world just needed to stop. This isn’t fair. You shouldn’t have left so soon Jesse. You are loved so much by so many people and I’m sure you know that. You were a great and wonderful person and I’d give anything to have you back. I’ll always love you Jesse and I’ll see you again some day, okay?